Sometimes I Wonder if He's Happy Being a Dad.

The one about infertility... again. Spoiler Alert: it's heavy, possibly triggering.

I guess I would have thought by now that I’d be over it.

I guess I would have thought by now there’d be nothing to be over because I’d just have kids and a family and had gotten my happily ever after. But no.

The tragedy is, I never thought I was asking for too much. I guess I was.

I did stand-in as a step mom for a few years, but that’s another story for another time.

I know that if my ex-husband and I would have been able to have kids -if I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE to have kids- we’d probably still be together, unless he decided to leave me for another, much younger woman. How cliché.

I doubt he ever thinks… hmm, I wonder what it would be like if Maegan and I stayed together? Because the answer is. Exactly the same as it was.