Though I do arrive in a bit of a negative state here, which feels kind of heavy at first, I overcome it pretty quickly, and share what I’ve been going through mentally with Trevor, who is still not doing well (for over a week now) and his decline has really taken a toll on me mentally and physically. I’m exhausted and it shows.
And because of this, I didn’t want to show up today at all, but I did it anyway because I’m sticking to my word and showing up for myself with consistency and that feels like progress.
I kind of feel like I’m hanging on by a thread right now, taking any and every small thing as a win, because if I add them all up, they count for something. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I was struggling.
I do apologize for the weight in the beginning, but again, I pull out of it pretty quickly and go on to reveal my “tramp stamp” accidentally mid-video while escorting Trevor off of the chair and onto his bed on the floor next to me, but I promise you that when I was 17 years old and got that tattoo (my very first one) in 1993, it was NOT called a tramp stamp AND I definitely would not have been the girl who helped give it THAT name, considering I was also still a virgin when I got it 😂
It’s a black line art drawing of a bird… a phoenix… and I got it as a symbol of freedom. All my early tattoos were strategically placed to be able to conceal “in case” I need a job or something, lol. Times were different back then.
Anyway, you can watch the video to see the rest, I don’t need to narrate it but I will mention this post at loveMaegan.com : Hello 2024! Positive High-Vibe Feelings ONLY + Free Printable, because this is the paper I referenced halfway through the video and wanted to share with you in case you wanted to make one for yourself 😊
The photo above should be high enough resolution to be able to download and print, but if not, check out the original post here: HIGH VIBE FEELINGS FREE PRINTABLE
And also, just to reiterate…
It’s hard, but it’s worth it.
Hope you’re having a nice weekend!
xoxo …love, Maegan
ps. all my free posts lock in two weeks and are for paid subscribers only… but loveMaegan.com will always be free.
