Come As You Are: Season 2 Episode 25

🌸 Happy Weekend Lovecats!

I hope you’re having a wonderful weekend and avoiding the craziness that is our world right now—because that’s my main goal as of late… based entirely on the fact that logging into Instagram almost immediately sends me over the edge, changes my mood and makes me depressed—and so I avoid it at all costs.

🌸 Before I continue! This is the t-shirt I’m wearing in the video —in a Large, so it fits oversized, and I had to share because I LOVE IT!

Even though this Come As You Are episode is a bit of a slow burn, i.e., takes me about ten minutes to get into the meat of it, I do feel like there are some good takeaways—for you! So it’s worth it.💋

🌸 A quick note on CERTAINTY VS UNCERTAINTY—which I talk about in today’s episode…

One of the most terrifying things that happens once you make a massive (or even not so massive) life change, or follow through on decisions or choices you made in order to change your life or in order to become a new person or in order to become the future version of yourself, there is an extended period of time in which YOU THINK everything is going to be coming up roses, so to speak, easy, wonderful, blessed—but instead you are met with extreme and unwarranted UNCERTAINTY and feel like you’re in some sort of abyss of fear, anxiety and maybe even sadness—an emotional pain that feels too much to sit with, as if the Universe is testing your willingness to become who you said you wanted to be, and it makes you doubt and question whether becoming that future version of yourself is even possible—or if “she” was ever real to begin with—and this is the exact time where you want to RUN, not back into your past, but maybe to hop into a getaway car and onto a different road, one that seems a lot easier—but only in retrospect can you ever see that if you had just sat in that doubt and uncertainty, sat and felt the extreme pain instead of running from it—that eventually, CERTAINTY would arrive, on some even very small level, brick by brick you’ve rebuilt yourself simply by staying in the sludge and little by little the pain lessened, and you could finally breathe again, knowing that you passed the test, you didn’t take the getaway car this time, you didn’t run from it in any way—and then eventually, finally, one quiet morning, you realize you’ve crossed the threshold—you didn’t break, you can see your path ahead, even if it’s faint, you have certainty in yourself and in the direction you’re heading, you have stepped into the shoes of your future self, you are in alignment with you you set out to be—from the depths of the dark soil, you bloomed 🌸 You might not be at the finish line yet, but at least you can see how to win the race now.

🌸 A few OTHER THINGS—OTHER PLACES

• Check out the latest post Medieval Revival: Going Baroque on IN THIS ISSUE

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• THIS is the INSTA account I escape to now, for all things fashion-related.

• I also wrote about “writing a novel” loveMaegan.com last week

• I’ve been (finally) listing more items for sale on Poshmark and eBay

• I took a bit of a break sharing on TikTok because I didn’t want to continue talking about my past, but I did share this at around 5am because I couldn’t sleep.

• AND, if you haven’t checked out my latest chapter, it’s still free for a week - you can find the rest of the chapters here: Everything She Never Had.

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